This is something that's most important to me.
I am as hopeless as they come as far as hopeless romantics go..I love [love], I believe in soul mates, true love, fairy tales, a Noah and Allie romance. You name it, I believe in it. I've had my fair share of heartbreak and many doses of realism when it comes to relationships but despite all that hurt and all that disappointment when something came out less than magical- I never stopped believing.
Now, just because I didn't stop believing didn't mean that I believed something like that would happen [to me] because I didn't. I knew love like that existed it just wasn't something I thought would realistically be a part of my story.
Chapter 1 The Wish
I showed up to the bar the Wednesday before Thanksgiving like any other time I showed up to a bar last semester. I was dressed to kill and single and ready to mingle! Needless to say I was ready to have a good time! Flirt with some guys, drink my drink, maybe play some shuffle board, dance, and enjoy the night! I was standing near the bar when my best friend Kelly announced that it was 11:11pm and he told me to make a wish. I closed my eyes really tight and this is what I wished for:
Please, please just send me a NICE guy. Someone who I can be incredibly happy with and who will love me like I've never been loved before!
*good thing I made this wish when I did because as the night progressed I would have been waaaaayy to intoxicated to think on the spot like that * :)
Chapter 2 The First Date
Let me start this out by saying I am a pretty confident girl but I have never been so nervous for a first date in my entire life! I was sweating, I got ready like an hour early, and on top of it all I was stumbling over my words the entire time at dinner. I couldn't even explain what a cochlear implant was (and for those of you who know me know that I am a graduate student and majoring in that hahah). Boy, all I could do was look at him and he just kept smiling at me and all I could think was WOW HE IS SO HANDSOME. I made a couple lame 80's jokes later that night while we were watching a movie. He didn't get the first so I don't know why I felt I should go for round 2 but I did and he didn't get that one either haha! Then that time came at the end of the night where I had to walk him to the front door. That infamous are you going to kiss or are you not going to kiss moment. I thought I was nervous at the beginning of the date? Yeah multiply that by ten and you got how nervous I was at that very moment. I am 22 yrs old and I felt 13. I felt like a 13 yr old walking to the infinite doom known as her first kiss. I couldn't do it. I couldn't kiss him. I couldn't muster up any more courage than I had. As I gave him a hug and watched him walk away I thought WHAT DID YOU JUST DO!? YOU ARE KILLING ME KATIE! THAT WAS GAGE ROELLE!! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!? THAT COULD'VE BEEN YOUR ONLY CHANCE!
Chapter 3 Here and Now
Don't freak out everyone!! Don't worry! I finally did get my first kiss with him and it was a great one! It was worth the wait! That was December and now it is almost May! Gage and I have been dating for nearly five months and I can't believe almost half a year has gone by! These past five months have been such a wonderful gift to me and through learning about the person Gage is and growing together in a relationship I have discovered that he is my once and a life time love. I don't think I have ever truly known or felt what love really meant until I have embarked on this relationship with him.Gage treats me better than I ever expected to be treated by someone (let alone a young man of 22). He is such a gentleman and does so much for me and things that no other person has. He has so much respect for me and because he is so thoughtful I respect him more than I have ever respected another. I admire the person Gage is and the person he tries to be. He has changed my heart forever and until the day I die he will always have a special place in it.
Chapter 4 For You
Dear Gage,
Thank you. Thank you for being you, for loving me, for treating me the way I deserve to be treated, and for realizing that I'm worth it (even when I'm being difficult). You are my best friend (we can do stuff like climb hay stacks, shoot your .22, and talk about Boondock Saints) and you are my boyfriend (you open doors for me, get mad at me when I try to open them for you, hug me when I'm sad, and kiss me and make me happy) I have the best of both worlds and I found that in you. I am very proud of how hard you work and your determination to meet your goals. I admire your honesty and your beautiful innocence :) and that you get embarrassed easily! I want you to know that I love you just the way you are and I never imagined I'd ever be with someone who I felt was my equal or my perfect match. You are wonderful and you are [mine]--now that's the most wonderful part of all!
Don't go changin',
Kate
Chapter 5-?
Who knows where this story is going or how many chapters it has left. All I know is that I feel so blessed God has not only created a person like this, but that he has put him in my life. The story isn't about how many pages it is, it's about what's on them. Gage has given me so many beautiful pages and even if this book were to end tomorrow, I'd cherish these words and be thankful for the few that I have.
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