Lost In Translation

Do you ever feel like you are spinning your wheels? There are many miles we travel on our journey through life, and there are many roads we take. Right now, I feel my car is stuck.

I am at this weird phase in my life. I am experiencing the ending of one chapter and the beginning of another, but I'm stuck in between the pages. I just finished school and completed my five year plan. I obtained my Master's degree and have moved back home to live with my parents for a short while to save money to find a place of my own. I have all of these plans for myself and all these places I see myself going, but I can't go just yet because my car won't take me there. It's frustrating. Plain and simple.

I'm lost in translation. I feel as if I'm waiting for my life to begin. I watched Life of Pi this weekend. Maybe you've heard of it? The Indian kid is on a transport ship that sinks and finds himself on a life-boat with various animals. Ring a bell? Well, there was a line in the movie that got me to thinking (it's probably from the book too):

"I suppose in the end, the whole of life becomes an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye."

Maybe God, or the higher power, or if you don't believe in that sort of thing, my journey, isn't ready for me to say goodbye to this part of my life just yet. There is a reason I am here and I need to start accepting that. I need to appreciate how far I come and where I am at right now. I know God will allow me to say goodbye to this phase in the perfect time. My car might be stuck, but I've been so focused on getting it to run that I've missed the beautiful view outside the window. 



It's time to do what I do best. Work hard. I will work to have more patience, strengthen my faith, and take a good look out the window.