The Cage Rattler

At this stage in my life I've been going through a lot of changes. New states, new friends, new places to live, new experiences, new love, new heart break...the list could go on and on. Because everything has been changing so much, some times against my wants and wishes, I've discovered that losing people never gets easier. I'm what people like to call an 'over analyzer'. I like to think about everything, all day, and all the time. It's hard losing someone so I've developed a theory as to why this is. I will call it "The Cage Rattler".

My theory explained in full:

By the end of your days, by the end of your very last breath you take, I feel it is your purpose to have perfected your soul and become everything God (or whoever or whatever it is you believe in-even if it's only yourself) created or intended for you to be. This is not an easy feat as you might imagine. It's a journey full of ups, downs, twists, turns that eventually lead you to your ending point (the most beautiful version of yourself). Now bare with me, this isn't a spot you can reach on your own. There are people who come and go out of your life. These people hopefully stay in your life long enough to rattle your cage, awaken your soul, and set you on paths you would have never taken otherwise. It is hard to lose them but they aren't meant to stay. Once they've done what they were supposed to do, they must leave because the rest is left for you to learn from, grow from, and go your own way from. We learn best the hard way and when someone comes in and rattles our cage and leaves--it is up to us to learn the lesson through self discovery (thus getting closer to our ultimate being).

I hope on the day I take my last breath I'm old and laying in my bed surrounded by love and am comforted by the fact that I became every bit of everything I ever wanted to be. I hope I can look back on my life smile at the struggles, shed a tear for the happiest moments of my life, and die knowing there was a reason for it all.

It is my only hope I continue to encounter these people and while I am not always pleased as I'm being shook back n fourth...in the end, when the cage has settled, I'm thankful for it made me stronger and gave me a new perspective. Maybe not the one I'm used to, but one I'll learn to love in time.